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Friday, April 30, 2004
7:54 PM

damn it..4got to blog yest..nvm.anyway..yest was sucky.i duno y but juz sucky.while i was msgin her..daryl was also msgin her.turns out tt she tot i ask him to msg her to convince her to gimme a chance..but pls lor..common sense rite..tink i tt dumb?haix.anyway..she told daryl tt its NOT TT SIMPLE.wth.when i heard it ar..i kinda noe de outcome..its a NO-FARK-OFF-YL-U-DUN-DESERVE-IT.i mean..muz she be so cruel?or am i juz stupid enuff to fell in luv wif some1 who dun like me anymore?i knew it was my fault..but dun i deserve a 2nd chance?i noe she's scared of de responsibility n commitment..but..we onli started tokin abt diz when we argued last time..b4 tt we din even tok abt diz n everythin was FINE.juz a chance..juz a chance to at least be like last time..haix.got back our klaz foto todae..its soo much beta den last yr's..had chinese oral too..fumbled but i tink i saw a 27/30.damn lose to derrick..wadeva it is..abt de responsibility n commitment..juz wan let her noe tt these aren't de priorities..juz need her to treat me like when we 1str started..juz all..n i wun ask for more..tc pplz

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Wednesday, April 28, 2004
6:25 PM

stupid beh..PMS agn den hold us back for recess for 15 min.kaoz.super pissed hungry.anyway went to collect cheque frm ex guardian..den saw moca my old dog.haix miss her so much but too bad she doesnt belong to me.ya den went HER hse bus stop there waited for her for 3hrs..frm de sunlight v strong till de sun sets.finally saw her..wanted to pass her de 'msg in de bottle' n de hershey's white choc.but she din wan.no choice hafta stuff it in2 her hand n juz left.she looked reluctant n in digust..was i wrong to do tt?i duno..i juz wan let her noe tt i still luv her..tt its been my fault all along..but y wun she listen?y wun she gimme a chance?i duno..haf no idea.gess won C girls table tennis..but so wad..its HER tts de more impt thing..nez n joel said my letter is v gd..but..so wad?if she has no reaction after she read it..how?wad m i suppose to do?i'm lost..in diz world of sadness..where darkness n lonliness n emptiness covers me..i need her back.tc ppl

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Tuesday, April 27, 2004
5:37 PM

haha today mass hair check.lucky my klaz miss ho v steady de..as long as it dun look long n messy she let u pass..haha miss ho u ROX!!but den..haiz tmr PE wif mui..fark..tink will kana hair check..de back n sideburn.lol todae c alot uneven haircut in sch..muhaha lin zi long tt ass kana oso..haha den ask me go PROFILE wif him..lol he look so smll kid.haha.ya went town bot present for steven's comin bdae..shawn's still in doubt duno wad to buy..den met mervyn go buy 2gether..fark lorh his hair so long n nice..damn jealous ar..haix.ya bot sth for HER too..was tokin abt her wif rT durin assembly..but still..theres no solution..haix.juz hope tt my sincereity can touch her ba..tc pplz.

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Monday, April 26, 2004
5:53 PM

haah nice day.lotsa ppl sae my hair's nice.haha so shuang.sense of achievement.onli tt stupud lin zi long say it looks like shit.farker.anywa hope those dumbshit tchrs in sch 4get abt haircheck.oh ya Beh had PMS todae.kaoz scream here scream there still muz walk in twos if nt muz hold hands.bo liao leh tink he gay too much over de wkend liao de backside too pain ar.din c her much 2dae..oni catch a few glimpse..haix hope she notice me ar..miss her badly.gonna give it my all n evrythin i noe to get her back..tc

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Sunday, April 25, 2004
6:04 PM

nth much 2dae.went for de weekly meetin at SPH.den b4 tt msged her a little.lolx.said some lame things.but its all real la anyway.juz tt i put in a v lame way.hope she rlly can understand my current feelins ar.had my haircut lala no slope at de back c wad de mui can do to me.but tink its nt bad eh.ya de meetin was fun..so full of crap.n ya managed to get bio notes frm sum super smart student frm HCJC.anyway all de ppl there all super smart.duno wad full distinction n blah blah blah for their Os.kaoz.felt so outkast ar.exams juz rnd de corner..tryin hard to be a nerd but cant settle dwn.seems like i cant absorb anythin at all.haix.i need bball n her..these 2 de most impt thing.

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Saturday, April 24, 2004
4:49 PM

sux.bball is like sum kinda drug.once u're addicted..u'll nvr recover.it rained todae.wtf suppose to c Cboys haf thier frenly but de stupid sky..wadeva.din get to touch de ball at all..aint feelin rite ovr de whole body.bball itchiness.examz comin..cant play bball anymore..sianx.its de onli way i can dun tink abt HER.she's causin a gr8 turbulence in my life.i need her back badly.back in2 my life so i can move on.if she ever sees diz..i wanna let her noe tt i was damn damn wrong.i shld b de one chanign..nt her.i shld haf nt ask her to change cos she din changed at all!!it was me..i was de one who changed.cos i wanted more frm her.but its her 1st r/s..i noe she's nt used to it.i shld haf take things slowly.i shld haf b more patient n b more understandin.but i din.and i had to suffer de consequences as a result of my rashness n foolishness n stupidity.heck de wadeva responsibility n commitment..as long as u're hearts wif me n we can den slowly develop.i dun wan any other galz to enter my heart agn..all i need is u..yes.YOU.a gal whom i've put so much in2.pls..give me a chance to show my love for u...juz stay whu u r cos i dun need u to change..i'll change to suit u cos i'm willin to give my all..to do wadeva i can to win ur heart back..

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